Friends and or loved ones, (or maybe instead of loved ones I should say family), make or let you feel like they are really not that and just put up with you when they have to or it's convenient for them to. When you say something they take it and turn it around and use it against you. It hurts to try and be patient sometime. It hurts when they don't want to hear how you feel or think about something. I get to the point where I'm actually afraid to express myself fearing I will just kick a hornet's nest of reaction from them. I am a grown man and don't like the idea of someone censoring my views or opinions especially if it's in my own home. If we disagree , let's talk it out and try to understand each others view rather than trying to win a argument that it might turn into. Why is it always me that is wrong? Why am I always the bad guy? Why do people always find and point out your faults as they see them rather than remembering or recognizing the good you do or have done or that is inside you?
Why can someone start in on you and then screw up your mood for the rest of the day and you just cant seem to shake it off or let it go? I don't think they mean to do it , so why do they? Does it make them feel superior to vent on you or tell you off? Why are you suppose to give in and just let things go but they don't have to if it bothers them. Don't the street run both ways? Seems like I don't know anymore. If a tree falls in a forest and nobody hears it, is it still my fault?
I would like to have someone who always has my back instead of putting knives in it. I guess that's why I have always loved my dog. Sometimes it feels like no one in the whole wide world loves me till my dog crawls up in my lap or cuddles between my legs and rests her head on me like being with me is the best thing ever. People could take lessons from dogs about love or being your friend.
I really try to be there for people , why don't they seem to care ? Seems like I don't know anymore.
