life is going good ?

I hate when life is going good and then someone comes along and pisses in your corn flakes by telling you everything you have done wrong. Are they that perfect that they don't make mistakes? It's ok to them if they jump on your ass when all you are trying to do is talk with them and show them you care and are trying to stay in contact and express your opinion or tell them something you thought they would like to know.
  What do I do ? I apologize to them and not get mad back and attack them back. Then when the conversation ends I  feel myself going into depression and can't seem to stop it. I don't like feeling down and like I can't do anything right. I try to be a good guy, I really do, seems like I am never good enough for anyone. I hate myself sometimes, I hate the way I let people, even family, hurt my feelings so deeply. Does anyone even really like me? or do they just put up with me? Why try again if all I do is mess up?

I give up.

All of y'all have always been my family. I'm sorry y'all consider me no longer your family and I am treated as a outcast . It hurts deeply to hear from all of y'all that you love me but don't want to hear what I'm going thru or how I am doing or anything about me or my life. I sincerely hope that none of y'all ever go through what I have been through and that none of y'all ever have depression. I never want anyone of y'all to know the hurt and tears you shed  because everyone of your family has been getting together behind your back and talking about you and  agreeing to  leave you to your problems and not one of you trying to help the one who needs help even when you ask for it. You all say the same exact same thing so I know y'all got together and compared notes and agreed it is all my fault. If you truly love someone, you don't leave them when they are hurting. you don't leave them when they are hurting so bad they are thinking more than once of taking their own life to get out of the pain you feel and that no one cares a shit about you and really doesn't even want to see or talk to you. That everything is your fault and  I really do hope none of y'all ever lose your family like I have done even though I tried to apologize for doing something I didn't even realize that no one wanted to hear because they didn't really give a shit about you and won't miss you if you do commit suicide.
 It's easy to say "I love you", actions prove otherwise. You don't kick someone in the teeth when they are already down. Not if you care about them. Seems Edward sr. would have at least taught some of you that knew him, that.
   I apologized and said I would try to do better when I'm around you. I don't know any way to make you love me. I accept all of y'all with all your faults, I have never told anyone of y'all things like y'all did to me. I have always tried to help when ever anyone asked me.  I am sorry none of y'all would come and sit down and talk with me and try to help repair the damage or at least forgive me but none of y'all are even trying. Maybe it makes you feel better to think you are better than someone, I guess in a way  I am as dead as Rose is in a way and that is the way you want it. I am glad y'all have each other and wish I was part of that. I guess I am just someone you use to know. The part that hurts the most is I really believed all of y'all really loved and cared for me.Now I know different and that really hurts.
    I give up.