Thursday, August 31, 2017

snippet of my life

what Donna wouldn't like, the other day her older sister asked me to find a battery for her Iphone as she thinks I can find good deals. Well I did find and ordered one and when I received it yesterday I sent Juanita a text saying I have it and would give it to Donna to bring it to her.( Donna works not to far away from her) Well, Juanita texted me back saying " Well you sweetheart, I will trot up next evening to see you guys and get it then." So  I speak into my phone to send her a text back rather than typing saying" ok darling see you tomorrow night." Donna , who says she never gets jealous, Perked up in her chair and asks me " just who are you calling DARLING ?"...... ha ha..... I laughed and said  "your sister" She called me sweetheart so I can call her darling!
 At the same time Brittany ( Cindy's daughter who stayed with us for over two years) started sending me texts and pictures, asking what kind of plant was in her new yard as she keeps weedeating it down but it grows back. I replied it was one of my Momma's favorite bushes that flower, a hydrangea, and to let it grow as it is real pretty, it's name must be Conner ( Britt pulled for Conner in the fight just on tv but he got beat, but kept coming back). Then I get a phone call from her, she was just laughing away at me calling that plant Conner, Tells me that I am pretty funny, and says "ok , I now have a plant named Conner and will try not to kill it with my  brown thumb. "
 Donna asks, now who was that calling you? I say Britt, Donna says " you talk to my family more than I do!"
                                  I just smile.
 
(just a snippet of my life) 

Weight loss

I think I am making headway with her, slowly, not to preach or bug her but I think my hands on approach is working. Time will tell as we both know.
  I got her to weight this morning after her shower so we officially start today with watching numbers every Monday.
 I have been busy with reading weight watchers books, figuring how to incorporate it into our daily meals without a lot of work or fuss. So far so good. I have been watching out the corner of my eye as to what she eats and she is trying once again. We had another long talk and I tried to get it to sink in that I can't do this, she has to, but I can help. I want her healthy and be able to do more with her life.That I care and don't want to bury another wife. I remaindered her of her telling me before we were married that she was going to lose weight and be skinny for our wedding, , this got to her, She asked so you wouldn't have married me unless I was going to lose weight? I said , I am just reminding you of what you said to me. I told you I would not smoke or drink again and I haven't. You have tried to lose weight , but haven't , I didn't just try, I did , so can you. I know you have but you always break weak and go back to eating wrong. I still have the only bottle of whiskey my momma ever bought me and haven't taken a drink of it in 23 years, and I could have made a lot of excuses to kill it, Rosemary passing, momma and daddy, my kids not coming around, My job was so bad I quit after 32 years, I still have nightmares waking me up at night. I have had lot of excuses, but I also know what I want to do and not do with my own body. I do this . I do. I am not a strong person but if I can make my mind  up to do something and do it, you can to. I am not threatening to leave you ,but wouldn't you if I started back drinking? Don't you want the best for me? Ok I want the best for  you in return. We are a team, we are married, we are together, what I do affects you and what you do affects me. You know what to do, you are a strong independent woman, you can beat this, it's all in your mind. I have told you numerous times before , (Gosh Louise) I will do anything to help you, but I now realize I can only help.After she stopped crying she  seemed to realize I am doing this out of love. For now anyway she is on board.

Friday, August 11, 2017

George Bailey felt

Now I Know how George Bailey felt in "It's a wonderful life" .
  I have been thinking of some floor mats I left at Reynolds mill so while I was in town just a bit ago , I decided I am strong enough and can now handle this , so I drove over to my old home. The yard was overgrown, my rock driveway I worked so hard on was all grass and yard, my old bass boat was near the front of the house rotting away and someone had taken the trailer it was on and left the boat in the yard and spiders and wasp had taken over the front porch. I noticed a front window still half open just like I left it. What once was my home for over 25 years , full of life ,I had a loving wife and 3 kids ,is now just a ghost house sitting there not being used or kept up.

  Yes , now I know how George Bailey felt when he went back to his home but he had never been born so it was all a wreck.  
 Seems like something is trying to tell me something but I can't quite grasp what it is.