I think I am making headway with her, slowly, not to preach or bug her but I think my hands on approach is working. Time will tell as we both know.
I got her to weight this morning after her shower so we officially start today with watching numbers every Monday.
I have been busy with reading weight watchers books, figuring how to incorporate it into our daily meals without a lot of work or fuss. So far so good. I have been watching out the corner of my eye as to what she eats and she is trying once again. We had another long talk and I tried to get it to sink in that I can't do this, she has to, but I can help. I want her healthy and be able to do more with her life.That I care and don't want to bury another wife. I remaindered her of her telling me before we were married that she was going to lose weight and be skinny for our wedding, , this got to her, She asked so you wouldn't have married me unless I was going to lose weight? I said , I am just reminding you of what you said to me. I told you I would not smoke or drink again and I haven't. You have tried to lose weight , but haven't , I didn't just try, I did , so can you. I know you have but you always break weak and go back to eating wrong. I still have the only bottle of whiskey my momma ever bought me and haven't taken a drink of it in 23 years, and I could have made a lot of excuses to kill it, Rosemary passing, momma and daddy, my kids not coming around, My job was so bad I quit after 32 years, I still have nightmares waking me up at night. I have had lot of excuses, but I also know what I want to do and not do with my own body. I do this . I do. I am not a strong person but if I can make my mind up to do something and do it, you can to. I am not threatening to leave you ,but wouldn't you if I started back drinking? Don't you want the best for me? Ok I want the best for you in return. We are a team, we are married, we are together, what I do affects you and what you do affects me. You know what to do, you are a strong independent woman, you can beat this, it's all in your mind. I have told you numerous times before , (Gosh Louise) I will do anything to help you, but I now realize I can only help.After she stopped crying she seemed to realize I am doing this out of love. For now anyway she is on board.
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