I received a call tonight from a long time family member that I never see anymore. He called to let me know one of his family and my late wife's brother had passed away from cancer on Halloween night. Then we got to talking about different things and he asked how are my kids? Well I don't know, they never call or come over and when I try to reach out to them through facebook posts or comments, they ignore me. when I call or text them they are very short with me and only my daughter just called to tell me about her uncle passing that you just mentioned. I tried to reach out to them , apologize for whatever I done but since their mom died they basically don't know if I am dead or alive. My wife told me if I do die she don't know if she will call and tell them because they don't call , they never check on me so why should she tell them if they don't care? He said he didn't understand at all. How could they be that way to me after all I did for them and their mom when they were growing up. He wished his dad would have been more like me , he said he was at a meeting the other day and they asked who is your role model? Who would you like to pattern your life like and he said my name. He told them I married a woman with 3 kids that couldn't give him any of his own and raised and provided for her and them as his very own. I saw they love in that family and I have always wanted to be more like him. I saw how he treated them and took care and loved them and was always good to me and did things with me when I was around him.
I have never in my life been told anything like that. Most of the time I feel like nobody really cares about me and wouldn't miss me if I were dead and certainly doesn't want me around or call and talk. To hear that really made me feel good. I did do some good in my life after all. Somebody thinks I am a great person. Somebody wants to be more like me. I am set back thinking because I never treated him special. He was treated like I treat my kids or friends. Sometime you never know what others think weather it is good or bad I guess. Well it's nice to share some good news, very nice.
