I don't think anyone reads what I write or cares if I don't. that's why I haven't written anything. I had my 62 nd birthday yesterday and none of my 3 kids or 5 grandchildren with my late wife even bothered to call.( 2 did send me a short text) Matter of fact they never call or call by anymore maybe 1 time a year unless they need something from me. I have texed them and called them but they don't return my text or calls most of the time. I guess I am just a old man now they can act like I'm just a memory. oh well, I know I raised them better as they were with me and their mom as we made trips to va. to see my parents twice a year and many trips to mobile a year to see their mom's family. now they don't call or come by and I am less than twenty miles away. go figure. I don't know where I went wrong. I raised a family too and know how busy you get but always took time to contact or see our elders. they don't . Can you just stop loving someone? will they miss me when I'm gone and wish they had come by more often? oh well, what can you do? Try and if it don't work out then just let it go and let do whatever they are going to do anyway I guess.
I did have a good birthday anyway even thou I didn't get any surprises or cake, but my wife was with me and we had a good day. I'm ok. I got a much long awaited new guitar, to bad none of my kids likes to hear me play even thou I record to youtube they never even like or comment on them, but others enjoy them and I guess I will concentrate on that and enjoy making them. take care.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
Thursday, August 14, 2014
tried bones
Well, I have spent 3 days now after my son said he borrowed a pressure washer and it quit working, so I said bring it over and I will look at it & if I can fix it you can let me borrow it for a couple days. He did and I did, overhauled carburetor and it started first pull. That thing has worked me to death ! I started washing front sidewalk about two inches at a time and really saw a difference! wow clean! So I had to do the whole sidewalk, then that lead to doing front porch, then next day started on driveway, then next day started on back porch when he called & was leaving it here another day. This morning when I tried to roll out of bed I felt the tin man in the wizard of oz. Stiff! I mean stiff all over ! Hard ! I mean muscles hard, they seem bigger than normal or either bulging or swollen up, esp in legs and right shoulder. Wow , that thing really gives you a workout when you are not use to it. But I stand back and am proud of what I got done even if I am stiff. Tomorrow I am going to try and paint my back covered porch floor to look like tile has been put down. I was going to do it today but think I need a day of recovery first. ha ha.
My wife said I could put it off till next week, not just a day if I wanted, she must really love me, that was a sweet thing to say.
I am working on a new song with my guitar when I have time, that's fun.
Robin Williams committing suicide really hit me hard because I fight being depressed at times and now have even more reason to fight it. Sometimes I feel like nobody really cares about me, weather I was alive or dead, but this made me see somebody does out there and I wouldn't want to make them feel bad if I gave into it even if I hardly ever hear from them. Sometimes it is just hard to be happy but I am more determined to be that way, happy, I am just going to have to learn to make myself happy.
I hope you are happy and that your life is going good. Write me sometimes!
Till next time, smile at a loved one for no reason and see how they respond.~
My wife said I could put it off till next week, not just a day if I wanted, she must really love me, that was a sweet thing to say.
I am working on a new song with my guitar when I have time, that's fun.
Robin Williams committing suicide really hit me hard because I fight being depressed at times and now have even more reason to fight it. Sometimes I feel like nobody really cares about me, weather I was alive or dead, but this made me see somebody does out there and I wouldn't want to make them feel bad if I gave into it even if I hardly ever hear from them. Sometimes it is just hard to be happy but I am more determined to be that way, happy, I am just going to have to learn to make myself happy.
I hope you are happy and that your life is going good. Write me sometimes!
Till next time, smile at a loved one for no reason and see how they respond.~
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
random things in my life now
Hello in there,
I have had some good days and not so good, just like you do. We had to go to a brother in laws funeral and then to Kentucky to for the graveside service to be there for his wife and family. While there we all went and spent the night at his daughters who lives outside Nashville. Nice being with extended family but hate the reason we were all together, but its a necessary part of life. On the way back we hit like a pot hole on I 65 and it really shook the car and even cracked our windshield, so I had to price check them and then go and have it replaced, unexpected expense of not only gas to Kentucky and back but also a windshield. Then the same week I had to go the yours and mine favorite place to be ! Yes, the dentist !If that ain't bad enough coming home from Montgomery my 1967 starting shaking and bouncing , then it got really bad, I was doing some sweet talking to my old car to make it back home. she made it! So the next day I finds me price checking tires and another unexpected expense of 4 new tires. Then on top of that a family member has a flat on the way to work and no money to fix so we had to loan money for two tires and don't know when they can pay back but they have to be able to get to around so what you gonna do? Another unexpected expense but it couldn't be helped either. Just when you think you are going to get ahead these things come up and I guess all you can do is roll with the punches, do what you have to and keep stroking, so I am.
I might be able to cut out my cell phone bill of about 55$ a month. I searched for cheaper plans and found one called freedompop. It is free! It suits me so far, I get 200 talk, 500 messages, and 500 mb of data per month for free! Had it 2 days and so far so good. If it works out that is like giving myself a 55$ raise.
I have been trying hard to stay in a good mood and live my life and not others and not trying to please others, cause you can't anyway and I find my life is better. Sometimes it is hard but I am progressing .
Everyone seems to have gone to the beach but me! boo hoo. But if I went ,all me and the wife would do is still on the balcony and watch the surf. Is that bad? But it's not much fun playing in the surf with no younger people around.
I cooked fried rice with lobster yesterday, first time I ever have and it was fun cooking from scratch, dry rice, English peas, onions, bell pepper out of my garden, garlic ,carrots, Sesame oil, and lobster, it turned out really good, even the wife liked it! yaa !!
See ya around my friend~
I have had some good days and not so good, just like you do. We had to go to a brother in laws funeral and then to Kentucky to for the graveside service to be there for his wife and family. While there we all went and spent the night at his daughters who lives outside Nashville. Nice being with extended family but hate the reason we were all together, but its a necessary part of life. On the way back we hit like a pot hole on I 65 and it really shook the car and even cracked our windshield, so I had to price check them and then go and have it replaced, unexpected expense of not only gas to Kentucky and back but also a windshield. Then the same week I had to go the yours and mine favorite place to be ! Yes, the dentist !If that ain't bad enough coming home from Montgomery my 1967 starting shaking and bouncing , then it got really bad, I was doing some sweet talking to my old car to make it back home. she made it! So the next day I finds me price checking tires and another unexpected expense of 4 new tires. Then on top of that a family member has a flat on the way to work and no money to fix so we had to loan money for two tires and don't know when they can pay back but they have to be able to get to around so what you gonna do? Another unexpected expense but it couldn't be helped either. Just when you think you are going to get ahead these things come up and I guess all you can do is roll with the punches, do what you have to and keep stroking, so I am.
I might be able to cut out my cell phone bill of about 55$ a month. I searched for cheaper plans and found one called freedompop. It is free! It suits me so far, I get 200 talk, 500 messages, and 500 mb of data per month for free! Had it 2 days and so far so good. If it works out that is like giving myself a 55$ raise.
I have been trying hard to stay in a good mood and live my life and not others and not trying to please others, cause you can't anyway and I find my life is better. Sometimes it is hard but I am progressing .
Everyone seems to have gone to the beach but me! boo hoo. But if I went ,all me and the wife would do is still on the balcony and watch the surf. Is that bad? But it's not much fun playing in the surf with no younger people around.
I cooked fried rice with lobster yesterday, first time I ever have and it was fun cooking from scratch, dry rice, English peas, onions, bell pepper out of my garden, garlic ,carrots, Sesame oil, and lobster, it turned out really good, even the wife liked it! yaa !!
See ya around my friend~
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Fathers day & our anniversary
Hi there, every once in a while I have a good weekend, this weekend bordered on really great. I am still happy. It started with my wife asking what could she get me for fathers day. I told her I don't really need anything but a few big ticket items, but there was one thing only she could give me and it would mean more to me than anything else. What is it she asked, I said for us to have a real good weekend together, I mean for her to try no matter what comes up this weekend stay in a good mood and for us to just to be happy and enjoy each other as much as we could. It worked ! We had a great time just being with each other and fooling around. I wish we could stay this way but I know life has a way of messing it up with bad moods, headaches, body aches, sudden problems , family or friends messing it up, you know how it goes, but we are fighting side by side to stay in a good and happy mood. So far , so good and we are into Tuesday!
My two sons came over and visited with us for awhile then took me out to eat at a place that makes the best hot wings in the area. Now that was fun, me and my boys out together enjoying being with each other. My new daughters each wished me a happy fathers day and one said she would see me in the afternoon. Sure enough about a half hr after my boys left she showed up looking great with the biggest smile on her face you can imagine and came over and gave me a big ole bear hug and said she loved me and hoped my day was going good. She stayed for a while and talked with me and her mom. We talked and laughed about stuff going on in our lives. Good times !
About 5:30 PM I got a call from my daughter whom I had not heard from all day and she was at the beach and when I told her I thought she forgot about me , she said she forgot it was fathers day.
It was the wife's and mine anniversary yesterday, another year, I hope there is many more to come. We decided on getting a present for us instead of for each other , a new outdoor grill, I was going to get a small one, she wanted a nice one, I gave in and agreed. So Monday I went shopping Walmart, Lowe's, Home Depot and then back to Walmart and bought a real nice one, came home and put it together and had it sitting in the living room all nice and shinny with a card and roses for my wife when she came in from work.She wanted a nice one and I got that in spades! She was really impressed and started to cry reading my card! Yess, I got her good! She never saw it coming , Ha ha. So that night we had steak and salad and broke in that new grill !
It's been good again today, Talked with one of my sisters and my brother who live far away . I mean it just been one good day after another, I don't know how many more there will be but we are on a roll. Don't sweat the small stuff, don't try to fix the world , let people be people and live there life and just try to mind mine and not there's. Ya, life is good sometimes ! You remember that ! ~ Rob.
My two sons came over and visited with us for awhile then took me out to eat at a place that makes the best hot wings in the area. Now that was fun, me and my boys out together enjoying being with each other. My new daughters each wished me a happy fathers day and one said she would see me in the afternoon. Sure enough about a half hr after my boys left she showed up looking great with the biggest smile on her face you can imagine and came over and gave me a big ole bear hug and said she loved me and hoped my day was going good. She stayed for a while and talked with me and her mom. We talked and laughed about stuff going on in our lives. Good times !
About 5:30 PM I got a call from my daughter whom I had not heard from all day and she was at the beach and when I told her I thought she forgot about me , she said she forgot it was fathers day.
It was the wife's and mine anniversary yesterday, another year, I hope there is many more to come. We decided on getting a present for us instead of for each other , a new outdoor grill, I was going to get a small one, she wanted a nice one, I gave in and agreed. So Monday I went shopping Walmart, Lowe's, Home Depot and then back to Walmart and bought a real nice one, came home and put it together and had it sitting in the living room all nice and shinny with a card and roses for my wife when she came in from work.She wanted a nice one and I got that in spades! She was really impressed and started to cry reading my card! Yess, I got her good! She never saw it coming , Ha ha. So that night we had steak and salad and broke in that new grill !
It's been good again today, Talked with one of my sisters and my brother who live far away . I mean it just been one good day after another, I don't know how many more there will be but we are on a roll. Don't sweat the small stuff, don't try to fix the world , let people be people and live there life and just try to mind mine and not there's. Ya, life is good sometimes ! You remember that ! ~ Rob.
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
new song
Hello again, hello, Neil Diamond wrote and had a hit on this song years ago, a while back I saw the movie "Jazz singer" starring him and his music. Great movie. So when the wife and I go to bed I start singing "Hello again hello" At the top of my radio announcer voice.( The voice u use to imitate the announcers on radio or TV, big from your diaphragm) She cracks up, I think I sound just like Neil Diamond and continue to sing the song, trying to make my voice crackle and draw the ending of the words out like he does. She continues to laugh almost uncontrollably, all this in the dark, in the bed. Life is good when something like this happens. So next morning as we are waking you know what I do.. ha ha... she says I got the song now stuck in her head.
That day I learn the song on my guitar, she gets home from work and I close the garage door and pull out the guitar and preform the song for her.( The acoustic in the garage are great! It reverberates really cool like a small canyon or cave) Yes! She likes it, good times. I'm on top of the world for a little bit.
Yesterday I put new strings on my guitar and it sounds brand new. I am thinking of my sister just cause. just cause she popped in my head. all the sudden a start for a song comes to me, after a little while I have wrote my sister a song about what she means to me but with a funny ending. I like it! I really like when I can do that, wish I could write more but they don't come along everyday, I'm not sure why but most days I cant compose anything , words or music, but yesterday the were both there. So last night was the world premier for my new song and I preformed it for my wife. I looked up at her near the end and she has stopped what she was doing and watching me and had the biggest smile on her face! Yaa ! It's good to see her smile. You ought to see her smile, her whole face lights up into a big grin and she just beams and you can't help but feel better just looking at her. She liked my little song for my big sister. Success ! Yes I can do something sometimes and it turns out ok. I'm not a complete failure, now to wait till I see my big sis again and surprise her with it, unless she reads this, but that's ok maybe it will wet her appetite for it and she will even ask to hear it ! It's a good day so far just thinking of this and its only 8:40 am.
Ok time to start the coffee pot going and figure out what I'm doing today, you have a good day and thanks for taking time out of your life to read my ramblings ~ peace~ Rob.
That day I learn the song on my guitar, she gets home from work and I close the garage door and pull out the guitar and preform the song for her.( The acoustic in the garage are great! It reverberates really cool like a small canyon or cave) Yes! She likes it, good times. I'm on top of the world for a little bit.
Yesterday I put new strings on my guitar and it sounds brand new. I am thinking of my sister just cause. just cause she popped in my head. all the sudden a start for a song comes to me, after a little while I have wrote my sister a song about what she means to me but with a funny ending. I like it! I really like when I can do that, wish I could write more but they don't come along everyday, I'm not sure why but most days I cant compose anything , words or music, but yesterday the were both there. So last night was the world premier for my new song and I preformed it for my wife. I looked up at her near the end and she has stopped what she was doing and watching me and had the biggest smile on her face! Yaa ! It's good to see her smile. You ought to see her smile, her whole face lights up into a big grin and she just beams and you can't help but feel better just looking at her. She liked my little song for my big sister. Success ! Yes I can do something sometimes and it turns out ok. I'm not a complete failure, now to wait till I see my big sis again and surprise her with it, unless she reads this, but that's ok maybe it will wet her appetite for it and she will even ask to hear it ! It's a good day so far just thinking of this and its only 8:40 am.
Ok time to start the coffee pot going and figure out what I'm doing today, you have a good day and thanks for taking time out of your life to read my ramblings ~ peace~ Rob.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
no birds, why? to many feelings, why?
Last time I said I put up a humming bird feeder, and you guessed it, still no birds. Very disappointing! It's bright red and everything, wonder if there is any way to attract them ?
I have me a pool table ! It also has a big top to go on it with a net & you can play ping pong. So far no one plays ping pong with me and I am getting tired of trying to run quickly around the table to hit it back to myself.( I must be getting slow in my old age) I think maybe I will wait till I get someone who wants to play to do this.
Two of my granddaughters came over the other day and we played pool! Yaa ! First time I got to play with someone and it was them! We are not any good but we had fun anyway and I think that is what it is all about. I would rather have fun than be good. I like fun.
I don't like feelings. I have way to many and they run way to deep inside me. For example , I did something the other day that was very meaningful and took time to do, and when I shared this, the person acted like they couldn't care less about it,( not my granddaughters by the way) or like they were a zombie, it was nothing to them ,but to me it meant a lot. Sometimes it hurts to have feelings. I can't blame them or say they were mean, they just didn't care about it and it meant so much to me, I thought it would to them too, it is hard to understand something like that when it happens. That's what I mean about feelings. Mine get hurt to easy by people I love and are concerned about. I have never been the type of person to just blow things off or say oh well, who gives a shit anyway? I don't care if you like it or not, I'm only concerned with me , not anyone else. Sometimes I wish I were like that. I remember my first real pastor telling me when I started in the ministry that I had to toughen up and stop wearing my feelings on my shirt sleeve cause someone will tear them off , stop being so caring and loving about people because they will eat you alive and hurt you. That came from a pastor of my church who I highly respected and it really seemed to run across the grain to me, especially coming from a man of God. But maybe he was right and I wouldn't have been hurt so much in my life all the way to the present day. I have always seemed to have a soft heart as my Dad told me once. I love hugging and petting friendly dogs for example. Most people just don't and think , oh well it's just a dumb animal. I know that is not true. they have feelings and have dreams like us. See what I mean . Sometimes I wish I didn't care about anyone, that way I wouldn't be hurt . But also that way I would never feel love and that is the best feeling in the world to me. I like happy. I think you can't have happy without having feelings. If they had hands they would be holding them. The down side is like me , when they get hurt so easy and people blame you for having feelings. Stop caring .Toughen up. Yea , right. I guess I will just keep getting hurt till the day I no longer have any feelings at all in this life.
Uggg, eeww, uck, as I was writing this I put a little fresh hot coffee into my cup besides me and took a sip after blowing on it and it tastes horrible! I look in my cup and see its cream colored! I forgot I still had some hot tea with cream and sugar in it and the mixture is horrible! Nasty ! I have to go pour this out and wash my cup.
Thanks for reading, see ya around, Peace.
I have me a pool table ! It also has a big top to go on it with a net & you can play ping pong. So far no one plays ping pong with me and I am getting tired of trying to run quickly around the table to hit it back to myself.( I must be getting slow in my old age) I think maybe I will wait till I get someone who wants to play to do this.
Two of my granddaughters came over the other day and we played pool! Yaa ! First time I got to play with someone and it was them! We are not any good but we had fun anyway and I think that is what it is all about. I would rather have fun than be good. I like fun.
I don't like feelings. I have way to many and they run way to deep inside me. For example , I did something the other day that was very meaningful and took time to do, and when I shared this, the person acted like they couldn't care less about it,( not my granddaughters by the way) or like they were a zombie, it was nothing to them ,but to me it meant a lot. Sometimes it hurts to have feelings. I can't blame them or say they were mean, they just didn't care about it and it meant so much to me, I thought it would to them too, it is hard to understand something like that when it happens. That's what I mean about feelings. Mine get hurt to easy by people I love and are concerned about. I have never been the type of person to just blow things off or say oh well, who gives a shit anyway? I don't care if you like it or not, I'm only concerned with me , not anyone else. Sometimes I wish I were like that. I remember my first real pastor telling me when I started in the ministry that I had to toughen up and stop wearing my feelings on my shirt sleeve cause someone will tear them off , stop being so caring and loving about people because they will eat you alive and hurt you. That came from a pastor of my church who I highly respected and it really seemed to run across the grain to me, especially coming from a man of God. But maybe he was right and I wouldn't have been hurt so much in my life all the way to the present day. I have always seemed to have a soft heart as my Dad told me once. I love hugging and petting friendly dogs for example. Most people just don't and think , oh well it's just a dumb animal. I know that is not true. they have feelings and have dreams like us. See what I mean . Sometimes I wish I didn't care about anyone, that way I wouldn't be hurt . But also that way I would never feel love and that is the best feeling in the world to me. I like happy. I think you can't have happy without having feelings. If they had hands they would be holding them. The down side is like me , when they get hurt so easy and people blame you for having feelings. Stop caring .Toughen up. Yea , right. I guess I will just keep getting hurt till the day I no longer have any feelings at all in this life.
Uggg, eeww, uck, as I was writing this I put a little fresh hot coffee into my cup besides me and took a sip after blowing on it and it tastes horrible! I look in my cup and see its cream colored! I forgot I still had some hot tea with cream and sugar in it and the mixture is horrible! Nasty ! I have to go pour this out and wash my cup.
Thanks for reading, see ya around, Peace.
Friday, April 25, 2014
Easter happenings
Why hello there , I'm glad your back!
Remember that song I made? Well on Easter we had some family show up and after lunch and the kids hunting eggs in the yard, beautiful day for it by the way, I nervously got my guitar and played it for some of the grown ups. It's a humorous song and some laughed and when I was thru they clapped! Yaa!! That made me happy. Then I played another and they liked it also. Woo Hoo. I was kind of nervous and messed up a little but I think I'm the only one who knew it. It was a good day. The Easter bunny brought me a bag of Reese's eggs, they are like the peanut butter cups only in the shape of eggs, I love them.
Today I called and talked to my older brother in Va. We gad a good long talk and compared where we hurt and what's wrong with us and laughed about getting old. He saw a picture of me and my wife in the front yard and commented to me that he really liked our new house, he said if it looks similar to the ones I see in the picture you live in a really nice home. To get a compliment from him really means something as he doesn't give them out very much. I said yeah it's nicer than the one me and him shared in Va. beach and were only paying 50 a month for, but young and single we could do anything we wanted there, it was a very old wood home.
I just bought a humming bird feeder and put it up on my back porch, hope they come around like they did in my last home surrounded by woods. They were a trip to watch. I will let you know.
I took out my chain saw the other day and " trimmed " some bushes by the front of my home, ha ha the trimmer was taking to long and the chain saw really sped things up , they look naked now but will come back I'm sure. It's a nice day out , sunny, about 72 a light breeze blowing and my yard was just cut and weed ate yesterday and looks so good. I cranked up my "67" and drove to town with the windows down and exhaust blarin , it's nice to be alive and able to get about and just kick up your heals sometimes.
I saw a blonde the other day and she decided to face her fears and go riding on a horse.
It was easy for her to get on and she was doing just fine until the horse started to go faster.
She started slipping off the saddle. She couldn’t hold on to the horse and her head started hitting the ground.
She was almost knocked unconscious when the Wal-Mart manager came out and unplugged the machine.
Thanks for reading, happy trails to you.
Remember that song I made? Well on Easter we had some family show up and after lunch and the kids hunting eggs in the yard, beautiful day for it by the way, I nervously got my guitar and played it for some of the grown ups. It's a humorous song and some laughed and when I was thru they clapped! Yaa!! That made me happy. Then I played another and they liked it also. Woo Hoo. I was kind of nervous and messed up a little but I think I'm the only one who knew it. It was a good day. The Easter bunny brought me a bag of Reese's eggs, they are like the peanut butter cups only in the shape of eggs, I love them.
Today I called and talked to my older brother in Va. We gad a good long talk and compared where we hurt and what's wrong with us and laughed about getting old. He saw a picture of me and my wife in the front yard and commented to me that he really liked our new house, he said if it looks similar to the ones I see in the picture you live in a really nice home. To get a compliment from him really means something as he doesn't give them out very much. I said yeah it's nicer than the one me and him shared in Va. beach and were only paying 50 a month for, but young and single we could do anything we wanted there, it was a very old wood home.
I just bought a humming bird feeder and put it up on my back porch, hope they come around like they did in my last home surrounded by woods. They were a trip to watch. I will let you know.
I took out my chain saw the other day and " trimmed " some bushes by the front of my home, ha ha the trimmer was taking to long and the chain saw really sped things up , they look naked now but will come back I'm sure. It's a nice day out , sunny, about 72 a light breeze blowing and my yard was just cut and weed ate yesterday and looks so good. I cranked up my "67" and drove to town with the windows down and exhaust blarin , it's nice to be alive and able to get about and just kick up your heals sometimes.
I saw a blonde the other day and she decided to face her fears and go riding on a horse.
It was easy for her to get on and she was doing just fine until the horse started to go faster.
She started slipping off the saddle. She couldn’t hold on to the horse and her head started hitting the ground.
She was almost knocked unconscious when the Wal-Mart manager came out and unplugged the machine.
Thanks for reading, happy trails to you.
Friday, April 11, 2014
smiling
Good morning to ya my reader! I'm glad your here to follow my rambling thoughts. Smiling? Yes I am, its a beautiful sunshiny morning at about 50 degrees going to the mid 70's and its Friday and my woman is taking off work early today just because she can, and just now the coffee pot just stopped gurgling and is ready for me to get my first cup from it. I feel like I am on top of the world right now, especially looking out my window upstairs in my man cave over the garage. The air smells fresh and my lawn looks like a guy out of the fifty's with a flat top hair cut and my azaleas & some assorted flowers are blooming. Of course my mood is subject to change darn it, even thou I want it to stay like this. Someone will probably say or do something to screw it up , you know how that goes, sometimes its me that does it! Ha ha.
Well I spent some of my life yesterday playing guitar by myself and putting words on paper to construct a song , most times my mind is like a scrabble board and the words don't connect right or don't make sense. They are there but I just have a hard time dragging them out and putting them together to convey my thoughts into music to maybe get a smile or a tear out of someone that might take the time to listen to me. Well I got a song finally that I felt was good enough to let my best friend hear. I played it last night for her. Yaa, she liked it, I mean she really liked it! She had a bad day that day and was bothered by a lot of things and even cried telling me about some of what was bothering her, So I waited till after we talked and ate supper and she calmed down to a more normal state for her then I got out my guitar and played for her. She smiled. That's all I needed to see, her smile. Then when I was through she laughed and smiled and starting talking about the song .It was worth all the time and effort just to see her smile (her laughing and talking about the song was a bonus which I enjoyed immensely) especially after a day she had where ones mind goes to places and thinks things you don't want to but it does it anyway, you know about that too don't you?
So I still feel good about my success on a new song and can't help but wonder if I might have the opportunity to play it for someone else and they enjoy it also. I like that. I find that is one of my greatest pleasures in life is to make someone smile or feel emotions from my feeble attempts at a song or writing this blog. It don't happen very often as I am just a normal guy and not blessed or gifted like people who hit the big time and make it look so easy. To me it is very hard to come by but I like it when I can do it to some degree.
Aw my coffee tastes good, I wish you were here having a cup of it with me. It is 8oclock brand original flavor with which I make a pot using half decaf and half regular. Too much caffeine wires me. I hear dogs barking in the distance through my open window and a truck's backup alarm going off. Life is going on as it always does. I wonder what it was like 200 years ago to wake up top a new day like today and also wonder what it will be like 200yrs from today. I wonder.
I want to leave you with a smile and happy thought so here is a little story to hopefully achieve that.
A man is terribly overweight, so his doctor puts him on a diet.
"I want you to eat regularly for two days, then skip a day, and repeat this procedure for two weeks," the doctor ordered. "The next time I see you, you'll have lost at least five pounds."
When the man returns, he's lost nearly 20 pounds.
"Why, that's amazing!" the doctor said. "Did you follow my instructions?"
The man nods, "I'll tell you, though, I thought I was going to drop dead that third day."
"From hunger, you mean?" the doc questioned.
"No, from skipping."
Till next time, Happy trails to you!
Well I spent some of my life yesterday playing guitar by myself and putting words on paper to construct a song , most times my mind is like a scrabble board and the words don't connect right or don't make sense. They are there but I just have a hard time dragging them out and putting them together to convey my thoughts into music to maybe get a smile or a tear out of someone that might take the time to listen to me. Well I got a song finally that I felt was good enough to let my best friend hear. I played it last night for her. Yaa, she liked it, I mean she really liked it! She had a bad day that day and was bothered by a lot of things and even cried telling me about some of what was bothering her, So I waited till after we talked and ate supper and she calmed down to a more normal state for her then I got out my guitar and played for her. She smiled. That's all I needed to see, her smile. Then when I was through she laughed and smiled and starting talking about the song .It was worth all the time and effort just to see her smile (her laughing and talking about the song was a bonus which I enjoyed immensely) especially after a day she had where ones mind goes to places and thinks things you don't want to but it does it anyway, you know about that too don't you?
So I still feel good about my success on a new song and can't help but wonder if I might have the opportunity to play it for someone else and they enjoy it also. I like that. I find that is one of my greatest pleasures in life is to make someone smile or feel emotions from my feeble attempts at a song or writing this blog. It don't happen very often as I am just a normal guy and not blessed or gifted like people who hit the big time and make it look so easy. To me it is very hard to come by but I like it when I can do it to some degree.
Aw my coffee tastes good, I wish you were here having a cup of it with me. It is 8oclock brand original flavor with which I make a pot using half decaf and half regular. Too much caffeine wires me. I hear dogs barking in the distance through my open window and a truck's backup alarm going off. Life is going on as it always does. I wonder what it was like 200 years ago to wake up top a new day like today and also wonder what it will be like 200yrs from today. I wonder.
I want to leave you with a smile and happy thought so here is a little story to hopefully achieve that.
A man is terribly overweight, so his doctor puts him on a diet.
"I want you to eat regularly for two days, then skip a day, and repeat this procedure for two weeks," the doctor ordered. "The next time I see you, you'll have lost at least five pounds."
When the man returns, he's lost nearly 20 pounds.
"Why, that's amazing!" the doctor said. "Did you follow my instructions?"
The man nods, "I'll tell you, though, I thought I was going to drop dead that third day."
"From hunger, you mean?" the doc questioned.
"No, from skipping."
Till next time, Happy trails to you!
Friday, April 4, 2014
Death
This has nothing to do with death, I just thought I would grab your attention! ha ha. Ok I won't do it again.
Well I grew a bread , pretty long, the second time in my life I did this but now it is not dark brown anymore. Why grow one? I don't know, I just woke up and didn't want to shave and it started all by itself. I got my wife to take pictures of me the other night, then the next day I went to my barber shop in the old section of downtown where it must be 100 yrs old , a real barber shop even if two women run it now. She cut my shaggy hair short and trimmed the fool out of my bread and mustache. Now for more picts and put them on facebook and see who likes what. Maybe next I shave it all the way off and go back to clean face. I think all the grey on my face makes me look older, if that's possible.
I started walking to keep in shape. I walked at a quick stroll for 1.1 mile around my neighborhood taking about 30 minutes, including a short stop to meet and talk to another person doing the same thing. I found it was kinda fun ,but hard to motivate myself in doing it . Like it's hard to start doing pushups or sit ups. Feels like work and tires you out. So I wonder does it really help anything? I mean do you do them just so you can say you do them? Who really cares if you can do 10 or 15 pushups anyway? Why push your body to stay "in shape" ? Why not just take it easy? I remember my Dad saying people who exercise are all nuts and just wearing their body out, he lived to be 92 after retiring at 54 yrs old and never did anything much again but live his easy life style. So I am not sure what to do really.
One of my granddaughters spent the night over the weekend, second time in a month she has asked to do this. She is really cool and really smart. We don't do anything special but my wife and I sure enjoy her being here. She has changed so much as she grows and matures. It makes me think of how much of life she still has to experience and live and I have already done that and can only look back and think , boy I wish I could do it again. But it makes me happy knowing she is a good one and is going to have a great life, full of wonder and loving people.
I have tried to write some more songs but have failed in the attempt. I tried to sing & play a new one for my wife but she said it was just ok so, I hate to say it but have given up for awhile. I am just not blessed with that talent, nor of singing or guitar playing , but I wish I were. Sometimes I do things hoping someone will really like what I enjoy doing, is that wrong? If so what should I do? I mean if someone you know really sings off tune or just has a bad voice do you tell them to sing anyway just because they want to and you suffer through it smiling at them? See what I mean?
Oh well, time to end this for now, I hope this finds you happy.
Well I grew a bread , pretty long, the second time in my life I did this but now it is not dark brown anymore. Why grow one? I don't know, I just woke up and didn't want to shave and it started all by itself. I got my wife to take pictures of me the other night, then the next day I went to my barber shop in the old section of downtown where it must be 100 yrs old , a real barber shop even if two women run it now. She cut my shaggy hair short and trimmed the fool out of my bread and mustache. Now for more picts and put them on facebook and see who likes what. Maybe next I shave it all the way off and go back to clean face. I think all the grey on my face makes me look older, if that's possible.
I started walking to keep in shape. I walked at a quick stroll for 1.1 mile around my neighborhood taking about 30 minutes, including a short stop to meet and talk to another person doing the same thing. I found it was kinda fun ,but hard to motivate myself in doing it . Like it's hard to start doing pushups or sit ups. Feels like work and tires you out. So I wonder does it really help anything? I mean do you do them just so you can say you do them? Who really cares if you can do 10 or 15 pushups anyway? Why push your body to stay "in shape" ? Why not just take it easy? I remember my Dad saying people who exercise are all nuts and just wearing their body out, he lived to be 92 after retiring at 54 yrs old and never did anything much again but live his easy life style. So I am not sure what to do really.
One of my granddaughters spent the night over the weekend, second time in a month she has asked to do this. She is really cool and really smart. We don't do anything special but my wife and I sure enjoy her being here. She has changed so much as she grows and matures. It makes me think of how much of life she still has to experience and live and I have already done that and can only look back and think , boy I wish I could do it again. But it makes me happy knowing she is a good one and is going to have a great life, full of wonder and loving people.
I have tried to write some more songs but have failed in the attempt. I tried to sing & play a new one for my wife but she said it was just ok so, I hate to say it but have given up for awhile. I am just not blessed with that talent, nor of singing or guitar playing , but I wish I were. Sometimes I do things hoping someone will really like what I enjoy doing, is that wrong? If so what should I do? I mean if someone you know really sings off tune or just has a bad voice do you tell them to sing anyway just because they want to and you suffer through it smiling at them? See what I mean?
Oh well, time to end this for now, I hope this finds you happy.
Thursday, March 20, 2014
feeling my age, my not wheaties
Why hello there, I missed you, glad you're back!
Most of the time I am happy to say I feel like someone in their thirties and am a little surprised when I look in the mirror to find some old man looking back at me, like it was a prank being pulled on me. Yesterday and today is different. I started the day strong. After having my cup of hot tea and a cup of black coffee, I decide to get busy. I grabbed my 50lb bag of weed & feed and my push behind spreader, filled it up and took off making ever smaller circles in my front yard at fast paced walk. Now I have a fairly good sized yard but when reaching the spot in the middle to finish the front yard at , I was about finished also! Out of breath and heart pounding. Off to the garage and refill then out to the back yard after a quick breather and drink of water." I can do this , I'm not old yet!" I say to myself as I start my big circle around the back 40. Yea, I'm the man! By the time I reached the middle and smallest circle to stop at it felt like I had done plowed the back 40 the old cowboy movies talk about! Another breather but I didn't sit down. Now to finish up on my side yard. Yup , you guessed it, by the time I finish it , I am glad I am out of weed and feed! I am really feeling my age at this point, but thinking , it done me good. Off to inside the house to find my chair needs sitting in. It talks to me sometimes when it gets lonely and needs someone close. This was such a time. The thought then comes to me I need to mop the title floors, but first I must vacuum, but first I must pick up everything in the way, throw rugs, toys, trash cans, chairs etc. I do this then vacuum the whole house and return all moved items to their proper place.
Oh I should put a load of clothes on to wash and dry, so I do. Then to search in vain for my mop bucket. I know we have a ghost in this house and she likes to play tricks and hide stuff . I still haven't found my bucket but used a trash can instead as I almost can hear the ghost giggling at me.
Fabuloso smells so good and the floor looks good when I am through. I feel like I have run the Boston marathon however. The chair calls me again for a visit then back up to finish my laundry.A few hours later I notice I can feel my back on the right side. A little while longer it is hurting, then after that it really hurts and I am getting stiff. My dear old Dad use to say at times like this, "Gosh ! getting old is for the birds! I need a drink !" But at last he is passed on and I quit drinking in 94 so I make me a fresh pot of tea and get a nice cold tall glass of it. Later finds me watching TV with my wife as I am stretched out on the love seat with a pillow and heating pad under my back. Yup, Dad was right, getting old sucks. You think you can still do anything you want only to find your body don't hold up to it like it use to. So today I here I sit after hardly sleeping all night . But good news! As long as I don't move to much I feel pretty good. Hardly any pain, but hate giving in to the aging process. I'm still a kid inside who wants to go play with friends but sadly don't have any of those now and my body would complain anyway so I blog my thoughts instead. Now I truly know why my good old friend Ponce searched so much for that ever elusive fountain.
I'm off to get me another cup of nice hot coffee and maybe scrounge up something for me to eat. You take care of yourself , smile ,and I will see you later.
Most of the time I am happy to say I feel like someone in their thirties and am a little surprised when I look in the mirror to find some old man looking back at me, like it was a prank being pulled on me. Yesterday and today is different. I started the day strong. After having my cup of hot tea and a cup of black coffee, I decide to get busy. I grabbed my 50lb bag of weed & feed and my push behind spreader, filled it up and took off making ever smaller circles in my front yard at fast paced walk. Now I have a fairly good sized yard but when reaching the spot in the middle to finish the front yard at , I was about finished also! Out of breath and heart pounding. Off to the garage and refill then out to the back yard after a quick breather and drink of water." I can do this , I'm not old yet!" I say to myself as I start my big circle around the back 40. Yea, I'm the man! By the time I reached the middle and smallest circle to stop at it felt like I had done plowed the back 40 the old cowboy movies talk about! Another breather but I didn't sit down. Now to finish up on my side yard. Yup , you guessed it, by the time I finish it , I am glad I am out of weed and feed! I am really feeling my age at this point, but thinking , it done me good. Off to inside the house to find my chair needs sitting in. It talks to me sometimes when it gets lonely and needs someone close. This was such a time. The thought then comes to me I need to mop the title floors, but first I must vacuum, but first I must pick up everything in the way, throw rugs, toys, trash cans, chairs etc. I do this then vacuum the whole house and return all moved items to their proper place.
Oh I should put a load of clothes on to wash and dry, so I do. Then to search in vain for my mop bucket. I know we have a ghost in this house and she likes to play tricks and hide stuff . I still haven't found my bucket but used a trash can instead as I almost can hear the ghost giggling at me.
Fabuloso smells so good and the floor looks good when I am through. I feel like I have run the Boston marathon however. The chair calls me again for a visit then back up to finish my laundry.A few hours later I notice I can feel my back on the right side. A little while longer it is hurting, then after that it really hurts and I am getting stiff. My dear old Dad use to say at times like this, "Gosh ! getting old is for the birds! I need a drink !" But at last he is passed on and I quit drinking in 94 so I make me a fresh pot of tea and get a nice cold tall glass of it. Later finds me watching TV with my wife as I am stretched out on the love seat with a pillow and heating pad under my back. Yup, Dad was right, getting old sucks. You think you can still do anything you want only to find your body don't hold up to it like it use to. So today I here I sit after hardly sleeping all night . But good news! As long as I don't move to much I feel pretty good. Hardly any pain, but hate giving in to the aging process. I'm still a kid inside who wants to go play with friends but sadly don't have any of those now and my body would complain anyway so I blog my thoughts instead. Now I truly know why my good old friend Ponce searched so much for that ever elusive fountain.
I'm off to get me another cup of nice hot coffee and maybe scrounge up something for me to eat. You take care of yourself , smile ,and I will see you later.
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
I decided
I'm baccckkk !!
Hello readers, well maybe hello reader, as I think no one but me reads this. Anyway, I digress, I have decided to decide. That is one of my deep seated problems in life, to decide, I constantly rethink anything from different angles to look at it differently to make sure I decide correctly. No more. Now I try to just decide and if wrong , oh well, back up and punt and start again.
I decided to let everyone live there life like it unfolds. Sometimes this is not how they want it to be but usually it is a consequence of their actions or decisions. Not mine ! I thought for many years I can fix anything or anyone. I now realize that is not true. So I offer my opinion when it is asked for or I just have to say something to someone I care for, but I am not living their life and can't control them or their actions so I don't have to live with the outcome of their life to that point. Also I am not going to worry about what they are going to do cause it's their problem not mine, I didn't do it, I didn't cause it so I don't have to fix it. If I want to fix anything I have plenty just with me myself. ( don't you?) I don't want or need the extra stress or drama that ensues. (do you?)
"Don't worry, be happy" sings Rob Marley. Also when someone takes for granted my kindness and expects to sit back when they should be doing something but doesn't do anything at all, well like my momma said , the chickens come home to roost. I have a life , so do you, what we do everyday affects it and if you have problems then do something about them! They won't change just by you hoping and praying, you have to act! If you don't , then when it hits the fan , don't bring it to me, it's yours, I have my own to deal with and if you didn't deal with yours don't expect me to deal with it when you didn't. I have always, and will continue, to help people that ask ,and are trying to overcome their problems , as I am able, that is a horse of another color. But I am through helping people and worrying about them when they don't want to take charge of their own life and want or expect everyone or someone else to say "poor baby" let me do this for you, you sit down and take it easy and I will handle all your problems for you. Nawwww... not anymore ! " "Never more " cried the raven. "never more !"
I just want to be happy and loved by at least one person in this whole world. That's my life's goal, and some days I am happy. Take care of yourself & till next time, Happy trails to you!
Hello readers, well maybe hello reader, as I think no one but me reads this. Anyway, I digress, I have decided to decide. That is one of my deep seated problems in life, to decide, I constantly rethink anything from different angles to look at it differently to make sure I decide correctly. No more. Now I try to just decide and if wrong , oh well, back up and punt and start again.
I decided to let everyone live there life like it unfolds. Sometimes this is not how they want it to be but usually it is a consequence of their actions or decisions. Not mine ! I thought for many years I can fix anything or anyone. I now realize that is not true. So I offer my opinion when it is asked for or I just have to say something to someone I care for, but I am not living their life and can't control them or their actions so I don't have to live with the outcome of their life to that point. Also I am not going to worry about what they are going to do cause it's their problem not mine, I didn't do it, I didn't cause it so I don't have to fix it. If I want to fix anything I have plenty just with me myself. ( don't you?) I don't want or need the extra stress or drama that ensues. (do you?)
"Don't worry, be happy" sings Rob Marley. Also when someone takes for granted my kindness and expects to sit back when they should be doing something but doesn't do anything at all, well like my momma said , the chickens come home to roost. I have a life , so do you, what we do everyday affects it and if you have problems then do something about them! They won't change just by you hoping and praying, you have to act! If you don't , then when it hits the fan , don't bring it to me, it's yours, I have my own to deal with and if you didn't deal with yours don't expect me to deal with it when you didn't. I have always, and will continue, to help people that ask ,and are trying to overcome their problems , as I am able, that is a horse of another color. But I am through helping people and worrying about them when they don't want to take charge of their own life and want or expect everyone or someone else to say "poor baby" let me do this for you, you sit down and take it easy and I will handle all your problems for you. Nawwww... not anymore ! " "Never more " cried the raven. "never more !"
I just want to be happy and loved by at least one person in this whole world. That's my life's goal, and some days I am happy. Take care of yourself & till next time, Happy trails to you!
Monday, January 27, 2014
I want to just give up
I want to just give up on everything in life sometimes. Seems like no matter what I try to do its always wrong, esp. when it involves helping other people not myself. If people need my help why don't they just ask me? Why do they only think of themselves and their problems and expect me to read their minds and know what they want me to do? Are they to proud to just ask? I ask when I need help, do they really think they are that much better than me? Don't they ever think I have other people in my life doing the same thing to me ? Like if I help Joe then I have to help Mary and if I help her then I have to help Sara, and it goes on and on.Seems like everyone wants help but they don't want me to be part of their life or process to help them, they already know what's best and don't want this fools advice only his money.But when I need something, everyone is to busy to be concerned about me or what I am going thru.Why don't they ever offer help to me? Am I not still alive? If I am still alive then I have problems. Don't they think I might need help ?Where were they when I was going thru the hardest time of my life and needing someone and asking for help? Were they out of town or off the planet? I Guess everyone thinks someone else will come to my aid and they don't have to care or worry about me because someone else will . But nobody does and it leaves me all alone and empty. Sometimes it seems no matter what I do, I do it wrong and just by caring and doing something, but because I didn't do it the way they expected , I am wrong and uncaring and a terrible failure. Sometimes I wish I were dead. Sometimes I feel like I screw up no matter what I do. If I were dead , I wouldn't disappoint anyone ever again. I wouldn't have my feelings hurt , not that they care about them or me for the most part, But at least I wouldn't hurt anymore.Sometimes I want to be a hermit, but being a hermit sounds lonely and I don't like that thought. My Dog loved me no matter what! But he died and I miss him and his love for me. I think there is only one person in this whole world full of people that really loves me but I screw it up with them too sometimes.These are my thoughts at the moment and not yours and I sincerely hope they are never your thoughts cause I wish they weren't even mine , but they are and I have to deal with them.
It's a cold and dreary Monday morning with a steady light cold rain falling and this isn't helping my mood at all, But I am dry, I do have my hot , (well slightly warm now) cup of tea , and my favorite chair and this is my blog so I can write anything I damn well please too!
It's a cold and dreary Monday morning with a steady light cold rain falling and this isn't helping my mood at all, But I am dry, I do have my hot , (well slightly warm now) cup of tea , and my favorite chair and this is my blog so I can write anything I damn well please too!
Thursday, January 16, 2014
Lokking out my little up stairs window
Always choose to heal, not to hurt, to forgive not to despise, to persevere not to quit, to smile not to frown, and to love not to hate! At the end of life, what really matters is not what we bought, but what we built, not what we got, but what we shared, not our competence but our character, and not our success but our significance. Live a life that matters. Live a life that cares.
Thursday, January 9, 2014
crowded library
I don't know what to write so I will just give you a joke for now.....
A guy is looking for a place to sit
in a crowded library.
He asked a girl in the university
library: "Do you mind if I sit beside you?
The girl replied in a loud voice:
"NO,I DON'T WANT TO SPEND THE NIGHT WITH YOU!"
All the students in the library
started staring at the guy; he was truly embarrassed and moved to another
table.
After a couple of minutes, the girl
walked quietly to the guy's table and said with a laugh:
"I study psychology, and I know what
a man is thinking. I guess you felt embarrassed, right?"
The guy then responded in a loud
voice: "$500 FOR ONE NIGHT? . . . THAT'S ROBBERY!"
All the people in the library looked
at the girl in shock.
The guy then whispered in her ear:
"I study law: I know how to screw people."
Friday, January 3, 2014
I who have nothing
Yes , I who have nothing , nothing to write , I feel like writing but don't want to want what's on my mind and rehash it all over again. I just want to forget. There's no need to keep dwelling on it but my mind keep going back to it. Do you ever do that too?
Woke up at 4:30, hear heater cutting on a lot so it must be really cold outside. I plan on staying inside all day, except to check the mail. I'm drinking my cup of hot tea, about time for my wife to get up , then I will get a nice hot shower and comfy clothes and start using the new keurig to make coffee with the new cup adaptor for it where you can use your own coffee instead of buying them prefilled ones you throw away. I wonder what the day will bring. Maybe some family will come over to spend the night if I'm lucky. Oh well, time will tell won't it? I will try to write more later.
Woke up at 4:30, hear heater cutting on a lot so it must be really cold outside. I plan on staying inside all day, except to check the mail. I'm drinking my cup of hot tea, about time for my wife to get up , then I will get a nice hot shower and comfy clothes and start using the new keurig to make coffee with the new cup adaptor for it where you can use your own coffee instead of buying them prefilled ones you throw away. I wonder what the day will bring. Maybe some family will come over to spend the night if I'm lucky. Oh well, time will tell won't it? I will try to write more later.
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