I hate.....

I hate it when you try to reconnect to people and have to apologize for life happening to both of you. I apologize anyway and tell them I will try harder to always be happy and in a good mood around them and not talk about anything going on in my life if that will bring us closer. Then I try to reach out to them thru media and they ignore me totally. Then I see them in person and they have a look on their face like they hate even looking at me. I guess life is all about them now. They wouldn't hardly even talk to me. Tell me they still don't like or care about me, I guess they only consider their feelings when someone hurts them but they could not care less about hurting others. Although I never really hurt them at all, they just grew tired of me.They whine about their life and problems on facebook never caring about others. It's always someone else's fault, never any of it is theirs. Well it hurt having them look thru me and act like I'm bothering them by saying hello and asking how they are doing. It hurts. I could tell they couldn't care less about me, even though I was their when they needed me. I can only hope that sometimes when they are driving around in their car that they remember who was there for them when they needed the money and don't have such bad thoughts of me.They stay away and act like they would be fine if I where dead. Or maybe it would be better to say they simply don't care one way or the other, but have more feelings toward a stray dog. I believe if they passed me on the street they wouldn't have even spoke. I hate it and I don't know what else to do. I guess in a way I care to much about others than what is good for me.