My last post was when everything was closing in, the wife was acting like she didn't love me and was ready to leave me and I did all I could to make her happy and it all backfired on me. Why keep trying when all you do is screw up? That's why I don't visit my family more, when I do they act like I shouldn't be there, my grandkids either sit on couch and talk with their friends or watch tv , like I was intruding by being there. I am never invited anyway. when I show up its like this so if I cant do anything right why do it anymore?
If I cant do anything right with them or at my home, why try at all? see my point? I use to be somebody and mean something but now I am not to anybody. oh well I am to my dog. She loves me and sits in my lap when I am in my mancave in my recliner and she falls asleep. I miss people but guess I will take what I can get. The love of a dog.
I do take some of these feelings and put them into my songs on facebook or youtube to bad no one that really counts to me even watches my heartfelt attempts. but I like doing them, maybe one day when I am dead they will watch them and be touched then. I can only hope. Till then , I live one day at a time.
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