seeming aggravated

 I met Donna as she was backing towards the garage, she looks at me with a surprised look on her face and I say "Let's go" she says "where?"  (seeming aggravated). I say to planet fitness, the special we have been waiting for expires tomorrow so lets go right now. Then I see the storm clouds gathering in the car. Long story short, she refuses to go, says she hurts to bad and will join once she feels better and that I am harassing her about it. I say you agreed to go with me and work your upper body, it will help you lose weight and your knees will feel better, but if you are not going to go like you agreed, ok,I have heard all this from you before but I want you to know you let me down and I am disappointed in you , but never mind then, I still love you. She says "I don't love myself right now or anymore", I ask what happened to you? You have a bad day? She says "I always have a bad day at work since they changed everything" 

   Once in the house she lays down in bed, I go to living room and think to myself, I am not going in there and she can just cry or pout, whatever. I get me something quick to eat and about 1 1/2 hrs later I see her cooking peppers and onions for her supper. The rest of the night is quiet between us. 

  I can't make her, if she won't help herself I am not going to say " that's ok, poor baby"

 I don't mean to burden you with this. What will be will be, I do what I think I can and leave the rest to her, I offer , if she don't accept or want, I feel blameless , I know I have done everything I can. One thing has changed in my mind since last night, she can get up and move and do for herself from now on. I will not wait on her so much thinking I am helping her to stay off her knees, from now on she can move more and maybe strengthen them. If she hurts more , not my fault, maybe it will motivate her. I try to be supportive but if she now accuses me of pressuring her to do the right thing, I will not mention the gym again. Just sit in your chair or go to your room to sew, sit around all the time, stay fat , do what you want, I am going to do what I want too! 

                 Time for the second cup of coffee and I need to go across the street to Steve's pool and clean the filter basket and get his paper in as him and his wife took a trip with seniors on a bus to Kentucky to see where a  guy built Noah's ark. 

                                Sorry I don't have any uplifting things to write but I know you understand that life goes like this sometime despite your best efforts.