my body is not indestructible as I thought.

 I went and had a CT scan done yesterday. Since my brother has cancer and he didn’t know about it until he had an x-ray done I went to have one done just to make sure I didn’t have it also. Well, they done a CT scan of my upper body. I prayed to God for them to find something and be able to fix it or find nothing at all and that I’m good to go. I wanted the ladder but I left it up to him. Well today my regular doctor called me over the phone and gave me the results , and now I am tying to digest the information the best I can. He said I have some nodules in my lungs and I have what appears to be a stone in my gallbladder, and I have diverticulosis, and I have plaque buildup in my heart. So he setting me up an appointment with a heart specialist  And a pulmonary specialist. I am unusually calm about this. Maybe I’m in denial or maybe it’s God keeping me calm through this awakening that I am like everybody else and one day I will get sick and die. I love my wife but she’s not much help today as she says oh you’re gonna be fine don’t worry about it , are you doing this to get attention to yourself? Stop feeling sorry for yourself. I answered why in the world where I want to get attention for myself with these problems? That don’t even make sense to me. And I’m not feeling sorry for myself. It’s just I wanted someone to talk to about it , I think I’m going to be fine I don’t hurt anywhere I’m short of breath sometime but I’m 71. But with my brother being sick, I decided not to tell any of my family including my kids because they might have negative thoughts and think I’m doing this to take attention away from him.  But honestly I did not he might have months to live. I did not want to take attention away from him. I just wanted to make sure it didn’t happen to me and if I do have something going wrong, maybe they can catch it early and fix it. So I think I will keep my mouth shut and not tell anybody , that might get back to my family for fear of negative thinking and I don’t need that right now. I am imagining just imagining mind you they’ll tell me to eat better and exercise more like all doctors do. I have started exercising on my bike since the first of the year. I think I will double up on the exercise.  Well whoever might read this please say a little prayer for me and God will help me through this and show me what I need to do with the rest of my life as a lot of times I feel like I am spending my wheels and not helping anybody or anything.  I really do want to make a difference somewhere, but I’m nothing special and he won’t give me a clear direction. Thanks for reading this. ~Rob